Multiple Identities

I didn't realize that when I went to sign up and create an account through Blogger that I would already have a few open to my name. Normally, I would be a little suspicious to find that there were multiple accounts opened through my email, but when I started reading the list of screen names, I knew it had to be me (billiibizhanee, billiiassa, horselucknheart, vanillababe024, messynessysweetness, honeybunnynessa, etc to name a few). I guess it just goes to show you that I have too many chapters in my life to share them all, but here goes with the current one I find myself adding to each and everyday....

When I hit 21 in February, I realized for the first time that I am truly 100% an adult. Now, technically, I've been legal for 3 years now, but everything felt surreal until that moment in time. It was like jumping into another reality, one full of goals and plans that at one time felt so distant, but now were directly in front of me. All I could think was Holy Sh*#, what the heck am I going to do now?!

3 months later, and I'm not exactly where I'd like to be, but I'm not in a bad place either. I'm still hacking away at school, doing my best to work it around my job as an Assistant Manager in a retail chain. I've been with my current boyfriend, Ryan, for over a year and a half, and we plan to move in together later this year. He describes me as his heart and soul, and I would cut off my right foot before I'd be willing to give him up. He is working on his Bachelors at the Art Institute, going to school for Animation and Video Game Design, and I honestly could not be more proud. Although we both have hectic schedules right now, we still find time together a couple times a week, whether it is by going to the movies or spending the night at his house. He keeps me grounded while supporting my dreams, and I could not ask for a better best friend. These days, my pool of friends has dwindled a bit, mostly because of location and everyone's lives going in different directions. Between my immediate family, Ryan, and co-workers, I find I feel pleasantly content as far as peers go. I've never trusted very many people anyways, so having a smaller group means less drama. There is enough heartache and frustration in the world to deal with, without adding pointless drama.

Wow, I just noticed the time....considering I need an early start tomorrow, I better be off to bed....hopefully, I'll be able to add more later. TT4N

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